This morning I finally sent out a package to go oversees to some special friends that are in Malawi. As i sat there writing to them , once again I was overcome by emotions. Why? Why lord, why these two girls? what about them just gets me? - They welcomed me - immediately - warm hugs. They were loving and sweet right off the bat. The group as a whole meshed. There was unity, harmony. And more laughter than i had ever experienced. And then it hit me - HE loves me that much and more. The whole time I was there he showed me this simple fact. Of Not only how much He loves me but that He delights in me. And there was the root - JESUS. I saw Jesus in them. Their actions and words always pointing back. And there was the sweetness.
Grateful for sweet friendship and for Him. The common bond and unity and love that we share IN HIM.
So as I was overwhelmed by him - i wrote. And then I mailed. And the sweet things he showed me in the process of mailing . To mail this tiny package via FED EX or DHL was going to be around 300 bucks. Yup - I said yeah I can't do that. The clerk informed me but he could guarantee it would get there - with USPS there was a 25% - 35% chance in his opinion that it would get there.
Well my hope and security is not in man , or fed ex or dhl. So I went with USPS - which the rate was 90% better - it would take a bit longer but I could afford to send it. Now it may not reach these girls but As I prayed that the box would be an encouragement and that he would deliver it to them or whoever needed it. I trusted that if someone was perhaps to steal it - that it would still minister - and be an encouragement to them - That the Lord would use it's contents. So it's on it's way. And i really do believe it will make it there.
The talk and interaction with the clerk this am was just so clear - there was so much talk about how awful and hard Africa is - he didn't even know where Malawi was - which honestly did any of us before we had heard about it. He said all the normal things - most of which are rooted in fear - much of which i myself had uttered before the Lord tore it all down.
And then the last thing said before I left for the post office - " I don't know why anyone would want to be a missionary, or why they would want to put there family in that position. "
And I responded - Because He's worth it. He is worth it all.
He's worthy of our praise, our adoration. He is worth it and worthy of us giving up everything for him. He died so that i could live. He ransomed me. He rescued me. And don't I , shouldn't I want others to know of the freedom only found in him. To know. That that one person is worth it.
He is so worth it and so much more.
I loose sight of that in the distractions sometimes. I get caught up and then I remember who holds me .
So with all of that - I am preparing to share with my home church about the trip.
I don't do well with lots of people, or talking in general. Give me one person and i'm alright. two - yeah i might can handle that. throw in more and well it gets rocky real quick.
I have somewhat of an idea of what i'm to share - he's forming it - i don't know how it's all gonna come together but he does.
And there's a bit of fear - I'm going to have to say words that aren't usually heard of during a sunday service. I mean we're talking about working with a sex trafficking focused mission / ministry.
So pray for me - There is opportunity here. For this Sunday.
I don't wanna get in the way , or put my agenda into it , and i have never done any sort of presentation so working with a power point and - ugh- I don't wanna get in the way
I want it to bring Glory to his name
And I really want to challenge - how would the lord use you ?
If not with this organization then the two questions
What breaks your heart? And what makes you come alive ? And How would He bring those two together in your life to bring Glory to his name.
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