It's been a hard week. Before I go into this I want to say even though it's been hard it's been good. The Lord has sweetly gifted moments and encouragement through it all. We got to see Seryn for free last night ( a huge refresher for my husband and i ) and we get to go on a retreat together tomorrow. A needed get away.

It's been hard. We had some very small itchy visitors this week that come to our house via the school on my oldest child's head. are you itchy yet ? get ready.
LICE.
Tuesday we got lice. supposedly only Riley has had - we caught it early. My dryer and washing machine have been going non stop since I returned with the first load from the laundry matt at 1030 Tuesday night.
I have felt more emotionally drained , physically drained, and spiritual drained this week than I have in a long time. I normally don't say the words - i just can't . This week I did.
I sat undone , a mess before my God and just wept. On top of everything else why this? And i heard horror story after horror story of it taking forever to go away- so all i saw was the immense never ending battle and i wept. sobbed.
I didn't see it as just one day at a time - i saw it as an eternity. sometimes i still see it that way.

My husband and I were talking about all of it and how it's so taboo. You say the word lice and people back away - and i don't blame them really. But at the same time it hurts.

Throughout this week he has taken me to the same passage again and again.

Habukkuk 3:17-19

¹⁷ Even though the fig trees have no blossoms,
    and there are no grapes on the vines;
even though the olive crop fails,
    and the fields lie empty and barren;
even though the flocks die in the fields,
    and the cattle barns are empty,
¹⁸ yet I will rejoice in the Lord!
    I will be joyful in the God of my salvation!
¹⁹ The Sovereign Lord is my strength!
    He makes me as surefooted as a deer,^[a]
    able to tread upon the heights.